Our greatest problem sort of finally settled

*zHigUo + xiNhUi = kUkU & LaLa *

I finally managed to draft out our planner and guide for "our savings". After much arguements and discussions with Baby, and also myself brain storming for 1 whole day, I was able to find a solution to solve our monetary problem for our ROM, flat, bridal package and customary.

Initially it was really difficult, because Baby wasn't very coperative, instead he was like having those happy go lucky attitude again. He kept saying "aiya, this amount is enough for our new flat, that amount is more then enough for wedding banquet". Sometimes he really pisses me off. All these are going to be obtacles for us in the future, problems that we need to face together, why are you giving me this kind of attitude? Its already very irresponsible of you to not even initiate the plannings and budgetting, and now that I'm willing to do the planning and monitoring, why are you still so uncorperative? Always giving me excuses and denying the fact that you haven't really done much.

I know Baby has his difficulties, and I have learned to accept it and contribute more from my side, but why does he still seem so unhappy?..... I was telling Baby yesterday that sometimes I really hate him when he agitates me, but I also still love him so much. Its really a dilema to have such thoughts, but I can't control what is running through my mind right?.....

Anyway after reviewing our monthly commitements, I managed to set a high but realistic savings plan for us, which both of us believe is achievable and I will monitor every month to make sure we follow closely to our plan. My mind is finally at ease now, as I believe with our plannings, things "should" be able to go well for us in the near future.

I guess I'll probably have to be more initiative in our relationship, but still need more time to adjust. In the beginning, I thought Baby was a well planned person, but time has proved me wrong. A girl would prefer to depend on her partner, rather than calling the shots all the time. However, for our case it's going to be opposite. I guess this is the kind of change one is forced to make under certain circumstances. But it is also the time we learn to mature and grow, and think like a real adult. No wander everytime the elders or seniors will say that I haven't reach the stage of "really growing up".

I hope for our relationship to be stronger and stable, and trust Baby will make the effort to do so too. Now I see a bright future ahead, and both of us are looking at the same picture now. Baby we have to work hard together okie? I believe when our hearts are connected, we will be able to enjoy the whole process together even if we meet new obstacles.

Love you Baby~